I Blocked You Today

 I blocked you today  Because I wanted to do away with everything that reminds me of you, Because I'm always tired of trying to get your attention, Because I'm tired of seeing how broken you made me, Because I'm tired of lying to myself that I'm happy elsewhere yet I'm always sitting waiting for that one hello text, a like and comment notification from you, Because I want to be the happy girl I was before you broke me. Well, it's time I live life like me and not after making you jealous, Because it's time for me to be genuinely happy and let go of every resentment I have for you. I decided today Because we can't just unlove someone overnight, Because few years ago on this fateful day you were a stranger to me. For, I gave my heart, enough time to let you be. I am honestly tired to force fate to put us together yet  destiny has decided to let us go. It is time I start making decisions for myself and not having a toxic relationship me because o...

I was a girl inlove w another girl I fell in love with alot of things about her, How she loves the ocean, her car addiction, Her eyes and above all her smile. I loved how comfortable she made me around her, how she made me laugh over her endless jokes, how we'd fall in love with the same songs and above all how she looked at me. She was my person that I must admit, everything she said or did just gave me butterflies and i effortlessly fell deeply in love each day. I guess I was wrong, atleast that's what my friends told me. She had the sweetest words but her actions just showed me that I wasn't her person, but my heart couldn't admit. I tried to grow bitter each time she'd hurt me and it became a battle against my mind and heart, a battle that costed me my mental health, my sanity and I ended up loosing myself because each time she hurt me, I was busy trying to justify her actions instead of apologizing to myself. My mind grew colder but my heart was ...